Well, you all know I have a freak-out weight of 145. The point at which all things are supposed to shut down, sirens and alarm bells are to ring continuously until my weight drops below the freakout zone again.
I hit that freakout weight awhile back. Yikes, was it really almost two months ago?!? That was 146.2. Ladies and gentleman, I give you today's weight...what is beyond a freakout??
Hi, my name is Julie and I'm a sugar addict. Dammit. Clearly, I didn't pay enough attention to the freakout weight when I passed it by. I pretended it might be related to medication I was taking, rather than my out of control snacking and dramatic drop-off in exercise.
Weight control is *never* going to be easy for me. Boo. Now I'm at full-blown weight management catastrophe, where the old feelings of throwing in the towel have taken over. I'm wearing what I am calling my "jelly bean outfit" today: stretch pants and a hoody. If you eat jelly beans at work all day, you are stuck wearing a jelly bean outfit.
I don't want to get dressed. None of my clothes make me happy. All these cycling clothes I've been buying? Well, the other day, my cycling shirt felt tight on my arms.
Oops. Crap. I can't go back down this road!
Well, I put myself back on a liquid diet today, and as much as I hate it, here I will stay until I get that weight back down. Some of it is probably muscle related, but not much. And interestingly, I've really noticed that post-tummy-tuck, I'm gaining weight in my boobs and butt. Two places where it doesn't hurt to have a bit of extra weight, haha.
However, I don't feel good at this weight. I don't feel sexy, and I feel bulky. Time for corrective measures.
It's the damn sugar. Where did this sweet tooth come from?? It's a monster, I tell you.
Happily, the weather is improving here. Mr. Wonderful and I went for a 30 mile bike ride on Saturday. It is so fun to think that now, a thirty-mile ride really is a quick ride.
I'll get this back on track. I'll post daily weigh-ins here until I get back under 140. And I'm staying away from the jelly beans!