Tuesday, November 19, 2013

The First Step is the Hardest

Ugh, I made myself get on the scale this morning. With a camera in my hand, even! I have been avoiding the scale for weeks now...months, even. I had weighed myself probably three weeks ago and told myself I would weigh myself again "after I've been eating well for a few days."

Well, you know how that goes. My clothes get more and more uncomfortable, I get more and more sad and frustrated, and wah-lah, the scale grows dusty in the bathroom corner.

I'm also calling to make an appointment with my GYN. I was complaining to a friend that I think I'm pre-menopausal (at 43??). I have been getting my damn period (or "flowers," as I have been thinking of it, since I've been reading a fictional book about the life of Josephine Bonaparte, and that's how they refer to it) every two weeks for months now. Blech. My smart friend suggested that perhaps this was worth checking out with a doctor. I will, but I hope it doesn't rob me of my excuse for sitting at her desk scarfing tootsie rolls out of her candy bowl all afternoon! Mmmm, chocolate... 

You may recall that quite some time ago, I had a uterine ablation to deliver a cease and desist order to my overactive uterine lining. It failed, apparently. :) My periods are quite light, but still there, and ever so frequent.

I'm stalling. Who wants to pull up that nasty a$$ picture and look at that ugly number again, bah.

Okay, here goes. Ufck. Pardon my French.

No amount of file manipulation will let me rotate this picture. 
Shake it off. I'm confronting the problem, and the hardest part was getting back on that damn scale. I'll post weekly weigh-in pictures moving forward. I got this.

Tomorrow I'll write a bit about my plan to turn this around. It goes beyond bitching and moaning, haha.


  1. You can do it! And doing it now versus waiting until after the holidays is a great decision :)

  2. a new plan is always useful..I am sure you can turn it around :)

  3. You mean we have to go beyond bitching and moaning? Damn. Not sure I'm ready for that. I had an ablation a few years ago as well, and I love the results. I'm sorry yours hasn't worked.

  4. Ugh I can't even stand once a month. Once very 2 weeks would make me insane! Hope all goes well:)

  5. Wow, I was complaining that my 'flowers' arrive every 25 days! My OB says ablatioin is a great option for me but I'm a big fat chicken and refuse to go through the procuedure. She also suggetsed an IUD, and I'm not keen on having ANOTHER foreign object in my body.
    So, I continue to bitch about my monthly flowers.

    I'm with you on the scale situation. I was at 166 which is my total freak out number.THen I got sick and couldn't eat for almost a week, and went down to 160. I was loving it, not the being sick part, but the new low on the scale.
    Well....not sick any more and the darn scale hopped all the way up to 168 this morning! Aaaargh! Talk about a new freak out number! I wrote down every morsel of food for today and I will NOT eat any chocolate at work today (my downfall).
    Let's do this. We can do it!