119 Down, 4+ to Go

BMI = 25.6. Inching ever so closely to the "Normal" BMI range!

I was very happy to see a little drop on the scale this morning. I had weighed myself at Greg's house and was hoping/expecting this, but you never know with someone else's scale. That puts me four pounds off my first goal! And it is my first goal: I want to keep losing. I'm not sure where I want to stop, but I can honestly say I'd like to get into my 120s. I suppose it's time to kick it in gear if I'd like to do that! Especially since it took me about two months to lose these last two pounds, haha. Oh well. My weight has been hovering at 146-149 for ages now, so it's nice to see a long awaited drop.

Along those lines, I booked my first plastic surgery consult yesterday! They are booking out for mid-July!! My appointment is July 19th. I booked the appointment for a tummy tuck and a breast lift, although I suspect I would actually end up with a "lower body lift" and a breast augmentation. I'm not thrilled at the idea of breast implants, but from what I've read, I think that might be the way I have to go for the results I want. I'm not sure of the protocol here: my plan is for surgery in early 2013. I don't know if I'm jumping the gun doing a consult now, or not. But I figure it will give me good information and I can process it in my own time.

Here's a picture Blake took of me and Greg at Supercross on Saturday. We had a great day. It was the first time we co-mingled his kids and one of mine. It went as well as you could hope. :) The kids, his two and my 11yo son, didn't interact at all, but we all happily coexisted and had a wonderful day. A *long* day! We got to the stadium at about 12:30 p.m. and got back to Greg's at 12:30 a.m. I was dying! So tired.

Supercross, brought to you by Monster Energy Drink

There have been some recent developments on his end related to child custody that leave me wondering about our future, but I'll save that for another day. I am a worrier and an overthinker, and it is truly best if I try to just let it go right now and see what happens. Plus, I am ovulating, which for some reason makes me feel SUPER SAD AND WEEPY! I have noticed this pattern over the last couple years. My OB/GYN sort of poo-poo'd me when I asked about it. When I wasn't dating, I wondered, too, if I was just super lonely and wanting a man when this was happening. Now I have a man and I am still super sad and feel weepy, although I haven't cried. With the slightest provocation (sad youtube video, anyone?) I know I would be bawling. Crazy hormones. So now that I am ovulating and having a man, I am driving myself nuts with over analyzing recent events and twists in our lives. We shall see. Today, however, I am doing the highly unusual (for me) and playing it smart and low-key. ;)

Here's a picture of Blake at Supercross, he is just the coolest kid. This was some race car, and it was running and revving full blast. Love that boy.

His mama cuts his hair funny.